SuN.DaY

Self-control.. Yes? No?

Tue, 30 Dec 2008 14:01:43 GMT

you were sneezin hard.. looked tired.. i so feel like to show my concern to you.. at this moment, i still care a lot for you.. i bet you don't know that.. but i just stopped myself from showin that to you. am i right? or wrong? although, i should still care for you even as a friend.. but i just don't want myself get involve on everythin about you too much.. just in case i couldn't control my own feelin.

this is consider good self-control? yes? no? i don't know.. but i'm sorry for my selfishness.. i just have to do that.

Missin this scene..

Sun, 28 Dec 2008 15:25:31 GMT

saw this sweet picture when i was surfin net earlier.. it reminds me of joe. i remembered there was one time.. it was after my birthday outin in.. 2004? we coincidentally bumped into each other when i was havin drinks with sotong fam at arcadia in chinatown birmingham. i and him saw each other from far table.. he then came over my table after some eye contacts.. we had a few drinks and went off together.. just like the picture, it was a windy cold night. he wrapped me up with his big trech coat. the tiny me just hide inside his trench coat, in front of his warm chest.. we were so sweet bein together that night.. missin it.

Happy X'mas!

Thu, 25 Dec 2008 09:17:41 GMT

went to T's house and countdown (but didn't really count) with her. good thing i have T to talk to me all night.. and invited me to her house for the sour pork chop. although i don't really enjoy it (too much lime juice), but still, it tasted nice.. we had McD for breakfast, then she sent me all the way to Kranji.. had a good time with her. i can't imagine my life without her.. thanks T!!!

PS: first time visited the new jb custom... man, it's like an airport! very grand, nice. BUT! it's like a maze.. gotta walk for very very long inside... left and right, up and down before reachin the exit. gosh.. it's took me 15mins just to reach the exit. compared to the old one, which is less than a minute, this one is too much.. wasting my time.. aggrrhhhh..

A Sad X'mas Eve..

Wed, 24 Dec 2008 14:53:33 GMT

after the catch up, somehow, i feel... very sad. probably it's because i know nothin will happen between us.. or, probably, i know you are interested in someone else.. and i think the main reason that make me sad is, i'll really have to let go of you by end of this year.. as decided. i don't know what, and why i'm still holdin on.. sigh...

Distance

Mon, 01 Dec 2008 15:49:42 GMT

right action always take at the right timin..

but right now, somehow, the distance has been gettin longer, and longer..

Neglection received when copmany is needed

Fri, 28 Nov 2008 17:01:37 GMT

when i need to talk, i've no one to talk to..

when i need company, i'm all alone..

when i believe that i have good friends, i couldn't find any to be with me..

life is sometimes like that. it's just a matter of gettin use to it.

Twilight - Bella's Perfect Lullaby

Tue, 25 Nov 2008 19:19:08 GMT

the first time i heard this song... and i know i'm gonna love it for long... sooooooo niceeeeeee....! heard from NN that the book is nice. i'm gonna watch the movie! hope that it's equally good =]

Am I Happy?

Mon, 24 Nov 2008 15:56:10 GMT

am i happy? i guess sometimes, yes. not all the time..

keep quiet..

Thu, 13 Nov 2008 15:07:53 GMT

somtimes, keep quiet on certain things doesn't make it better.. it would be good to share it out and seek for advice..

Huge effort for a small return

Mon, 10 Nov 2008 15:20:32 GMT

don't know why..

for me, i need to make a huge effort to get a small return..

for others, there will be a big return with just a very little effort..

maybe it's already immune.. perhaps i should do a bit lesser from now and see what will happen?